BoneHead: Bones In Bloom Art Gallery

"In April 2016 I presented my first solo art show. Traditional art was my background but I had done nothing but work on anatomy software for eight years. Someone gave me a shot and I took it. For weeks I prepared these pieces, and as the show approached time got tighter. At that point I was only sleeping a couple of hours each night, my family was struggling, and I was putting a lot on my wife. I’m not much of a social media person, and I had a show to promote. I did what I could. but that’s not enough. So my wife and her friends helped blasted out and the anticipation and audience attendance was growing. I was unfinished and full of anxiety up until the last minute. I hung the pieces the morning of the show, all of them complete, some rushed, but the full set. I told the gallery owner that they were still tacky, but I was sure by tonight they would be fully cured. I left them and I went home to wait and get ready. Before the show I told my wife I didn’t know what I was doing, and I wasn’t sure that I had done the right thing. She comforted me, reassured me. She made it happen. We showed up that night to a packed house. I clutched her tight all night while I played my part. We left late after sitting talking with friends. I sold half the show. I did it again a year later and occasionally still join shows, but this was my first. I was looking through old files when I found the photos of the pieces. I thought it might be neat to put on the show again, for a new audience, in a new way for everyone. what I didn’t really account for was the amount of work and the same fears and anxieties popping up. Again I have put my family through this madness. Again I have shown fear and weakness to the person who relies on me most. Again my wife has picked me up even though she is hurting. Sometimes I feel trapped as an artist, it’s something I can’t turn off. This show is done. I am tired now. If an NFT art show can be dedicated to someone, I would like to dedicate this show, all of my art and all of my love to my beautiful wife. Thank you so much for everything you do for our family. And the support you give me. I hope one day I am more sure and able to give you the strength back that you’ve given me. I love you with all of my heart."